April 17, 2017.

Harry is out: released on 4/10/2017.  Gerrard is back; it’s a soap bubble but I’m trying to hold onto it.

April 9, 2017.

Paul is out.  A date with Harry was good, but his heart isn’t in the connection, and his (very young) age is likely a key factor.  I’ll decide by midnight on Monday whether to release him.

April 3, 2017.

No more hangover; new info about Gerrard confirms that it wasn’t me, and it wasn’t worth the anguish.  Paul expires at midnight tonight, and Harry becomes the full front-runner.

April 2, 2017.

I’m not going to let my Gerrard hangover distract me from my mission.  A good couple of days with Harry; there is something here, a tiny seedling.  Sixth day now for no word from Paul, and we tentatively have plans in one week, so if I hear nothing by tomorrow, he’s out.

April 1, 2017.

Paul might still be coming here but he’s been dark five days and I’m not really feeling it.

Harry and I are still trying. I feel like there could be something to mold there. But I’m trying to fill a hole that maybe I shouldn’t.

March 27, 2017.

Paul Revere is coming here in two weeks.  Allen just severed fully—we won’t be returning from the hiatus, at least not with a plan.

Harry Potter is a new candidate; we’re still in an email phase, but I am not feeling the same immediate chemistry I did with Jack and Gerrard. I’m spoiled now for a boy where I can feel him through the wire.

March 20, 2017.

I was correct that Gerrard couldn’t have possibly been real.  After three increasingly intense dates, he ghosted.  Nary a sign of why; it went from perfect to 0 mph in 24 hours.

Paul Revere hasn’t given up, and is now planning a trip to see me.  Sexy and erudite as he is, I’m struggling to muster the interest; he is two time zones away and at best it would be a quarterly physical meeting. I think Paul wants a kinky Mistress top, not actually to submit to a Dominant. But—his schedule could work with mine, which is a point in his favor.


March 15, 2017.

Gerrard stayed over last night. If I tried to relay the events of the visit, even the minor details, you would think I was making it up for cinematic and creative license.  Call me a cynic or a pessimist but I can’t see this working out; for although I believe I am entitled to karmic rewards, this would be pushing it even for me.

Paul Revere suddenly is vigorously renewed. Wants to fly in to meet me next month. Is it possible to smell pheromones across time zones?


March 13, 2017.

The morning after releasing Jack, I began talking to Gerrard. We have since spoken on the phone and met twice in public. This is a preternaturally strong connection, which scares me a great deal; my cynicism keeps me from believing in anything “at first sight” or “one true” or the like.


March 5, 2017.

I severed today with Jack Daniels; more on that another time.

Paul Revere wants to meet. He is travelling but we are supposed to speak this week.